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Thursday, January 08, 2009

disgustingly insane

[wow.  it's been a very long time since I last wrote in here.
I don't know why all of a sudden I decided to rant in here but here I go.]

Asian People are INSANE.

Well, don't get all offended by this because I do know most of the people who read this (if they still do) are Asian, and HAHA I am too... but!  What I just read on Soompi just disgusted me to the point where I needed to rant about it.

So, of course we all know that America has a serious medical problem of obesity.  I myself am fighting with being overweight and would kill to lose 30 pounds to be considered normal in BMI standards.  Hell, if I lost 30 pounds I'd be hella happy and proud of my body and for sure will be looking good. However, after reading this last post on soompi, being "normal" in BMI standards is no where near "normal" in Asian standards (Korea, especially). 

I opened a forum posting that was titled "Girls, Do you think you're fat 24/7?"
Well, considering that I can relate to the topic, I opened it, expecting to read about the struggles of an overweight girl dealing with her self esteem issues.  

HAHAHAHA YEAH RIGHT.

To my disgust (yes, I actually got really sick to the stomach reading this), it was the ranting of a 5'7" girl weighing 115lbs, complaining about how she feels fat and how others call her fat.
Wait, rewind - 5'7" NOT 4'7" but 5 foot 7 inches and 115lbs!  
Nope, not making this up.  Even if she was 150lbs people would consider her healthy! 
And then I looked at all of the replies people made to the forum...
and I was hoping someone would slap some sense into the girl and tell her she's no way near the word FAT but rather leaning more towards the UNDERWEIGHT side.
But to help even more with the indigestion, girls were posting up their own heights and weights and complaining about how they think they're fat too!

Quote: " LOL if you're family thinks you're fat.. then i'm super obese..-.-
i'm 5'6 and 130 pounds and i feel fat most of the time but i try not to think about it and just do my best to slim down.
Thank God i don't live in Korea anymore cause then everyone would probably bully me tongue.gif"

So... what does that make me?  I'm considered obese-to-the-point-of-no-return in Korea.  I am, in fact, overweight (even though people tell me to shut up and that I'm not, but really, I am) but I know I'm not hideously fat or obese.  What is this girl ranting about?  Super obese?!  That's my ideal weight and height right there!  Do I have to double the amount of weight I need to lose in order to be considered "acceptable" in Asian society now? 

I mean, yes, I do realize that Asians are SUPER SUPER skinny.  As in, having some meat is considered fat.  My healthy-looking skinny friend actually just came back from studying abroad in Korea and I was SHOCKED to hear that people even had the nerves to call her CHUNKY.  I honestly would LOVE to visit Korea but one of the main reasons that's holding me back is the fear that I have of being criticized and bullied because of my physical appearance; because of my weight. 

Perhaps it's not even the girl's fault for thinking and complaining that she's fat.  Her family is calling her fat - which I can relate to but mine's a different situation.  My family criticizes me because I am unhealthy; because, I am INDEED heavy.  But leave the poor skinny girl alone!  She is NOT fat.  She is either skinny or healthy!  It's just so frustrating when I see girls who ARE thin think they're fat because they're not ANOREXIC status yet.  Standards in Korea right now for girls are just ridiculous!  Yes, maybe the standards have made almost every single Korean girl really "pretty" by making her really skinny but might I mention they also look all the same?  Why?  Because plastic surgery is like getting a dental checkup in Korea.  Almost every single girl has done it (eyes) and now rhinoplasty (wtf) is the new graduation present.  I'll even admit it, I've been tempted to consider plastic surgery myself.  ME!  ME!!   Me who used to be so opposed to plastic surgery and basing people off of  looks.  But society is tough and the beautiful does get it easy.... but still.  Thinking a 100lb tall girl is fat is ridiculous.

I'm just going to forget Asian standards and work on losing weight until I'm satisfied; until I can look in the mirror and think I'm beautiful and sexy and pretty and all that good jazz.  I'm going to work until my self-esteem rises from it's current rock bottom and thank Buddha that my standards are not Asian because that would mean I would have to lose nearly a third of my body weight.  Eck.    



 


Wednesday, June 25, 2008

http://pds56.cafe.daum.net/original/6/cafe/2008/01/07/22/54/47822ef9324ad&token=20080526&.mp3


Sunday, January 13, 2008

http://cfs11.planet.daum.net/upload_control/pcp_download.php?fhandle=Nk1nd2xAZnMxMS5wbGFuZXQuZGF1bS5uZXQ6LzExMTA2MDkvNC80NzAud21h&filename=470.wma

 

http://down.hangame.co.kr/b362865d491178ca94/hompy2/bbs/20080112/11/어스-지금이대로-shuplea.wma


Monday, September 10, 2007

http://pds2.egloos.com/pds/200610/24/57/yuhki_kuramoto-sonnet_of_the_woods.mp3


Sunday, May 13, 2007

Becoming a STARRRRRRR

Yes!!  I'm famous!!!! I'm a SUPA STAAA~

MV we made to Magnetic North's - We Will Not Be Moved
Pretty Cool cuz they're both Asian American rappers and they both CAL alumni (Yeyuh)

Hahahaha... hella good times filming this.  My face >.<


Thespian
Uploaded by jinkbl0t
( there's me being the bio "GSI" ... oh~ how my life indeed revolves around Bio... )
 
Hahaha... not really.. but I am in these 3 videos for AT LEAST a split second.  Actually... they're all really bad shots of me but whatever.  I'm on YOUTUBE!!!  wuhahaha..  -_____-;; (Sorry, finals have made me go crazy.)
 
These are actually videos my ASIAN AMERICAN FILM STUDIES discussion class made.  I'd like to boast that the professor seemed to have favored ours from the collection of films that were premiered at our Film Festival.  Muahaha.. anyway yeah.  Just wanted to share these and I hope you like them.  The last one was actually just made by one of the classmates but the other 2 were a group thing.  Enjoy!!
 
Oh!!  and I have this website thing where I uploaded some K-music that I like.  Check them out~  =B
 
K.  I'm out.  I'm gonna go kick some major ass on my last 2 finals... (I hope)  Wish me luck!!
Good luck on yours too!!!